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Grateful Former RTE star Michelle Heaton 'lucky to be here' as she marks 100 days of sobriety

'I remember waking up after yet another night of a party for one, alone by myself in utter madness and chaos'


Michelle Heaton (Matt Alexander/PA)

Michelle Heaton (Matt Alexander/PA)

Michelle Heaton (Matt Alexander/PA)

Former RTE star Michelle Heaton has marked 100 days of sobriety by saying she is grateful and “lucky to be here”. 

The Liberty X singer, who spent four weeks at the Priory Clinic after hitting rock-bottom in April, is celebrating her recovery after three years of drug and alcohol addictions.

"I’m really grateful," she explained. "I’m just so lucky I’m here. Before, I didn’t think I deserved anything. I think that’s the thing with going through addiction, you don’t feel worthy of anything.

"That’s why you drink because you want the pain to end. That’s the reality of addiction."

She explained to OK! Magazine that the psychiatric hospital took away her phone, bags, clothes, toiletries, razors, as well as anything that could hurt her.

"You then earn your rights back depending on your physical condition, medication and what your addiction is," she added.

In a social media post that included a before and after photo, she explained that “100 days ago I took this photo, the morning I went into rehab. I remember waking up after yet another night of a party for one, alone by myself in utter madness and chaos.

“100 days on, and I wake up (with still tired eyes), but tired from just a restless sleep, not a drugged up binge.

"All I could see was darkness, now I can see light. Where there was pain I feel joy. Where there was no hope I have comfort.”

She added: “I hate to preach .. but here I go!

"I’m preaching to the still suffering addict. You are not alone, you are me, I was you!
If you are in pain if you are controlled and have become powerless to this disease only YOU can label yourself!

"Admitting you need or want help is the first and hardest step. Let’s beat this! One day at a time. Not for tomorrow, just for today! Help is out there.”

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She also included details on where people could go to seek help.

The 42-year-old , who shares children Faith (9) and AJ (7) with her husband of 11 years, Hugh Hanley, recently appeared on Loose Women to discuss the effects her addiction had on her.

"It got a hold of me really badly about a year and a half ago. I was so ill, I had lost so much weight, my skin was translucent, my belly was very swollen and very hard," the star explained.

"I was sick to drink more. I would make myself sick to drink more. I'd be happy when I was sick because I could drink more. It got so out of control that it controlled everything that I did," she added.

In June, Michelle expressed hope for her future after years battling booze and drugs in a poignant photo with her seven-year-old son Aaron Jay.

Michelle, who once revealed she was “close to death” after a three-day cocaine binge that saw her consume “a gram a night” of the Class A drug, looked a picture of health in the snap she shared with her 231,000 Instagram followers.

The mum-of-two wrote: “As I look at you…I can see my future for the first time in years as so bright and full of hope and sobriety.

“I’m so grateful I get this chance to be a better mum! One day at a time x.”

It was close pal Katie Price who encouraged the reality TV star to book herself into rehab before she was she later joyfully reunited with her family.

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