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lady luck Amanda Knox suffering ‘survivor’s guilt’ years after the death of her room-mate Meredith Kercher


Amanda Knox was was exonerated for the murder British student Meredith Kercher

Amanda Knox was was exonerated for the murder British student Meredith Kercher

Amanda Knox was was exonerated for the murder British student Meredith Kercher

Amanda Knox has revealed how she still suffers ‘survivor’s guilt’ more than a decade after the death of her roommate Meredith Kercher in 2007. 

Speaking in an interview with Newstalk that was broadcast this morning, Amanda, who was acquitted of the murder of Kercher five years ago, spoke about the crime that she wrongfully spent four years in jail for.

“I think about that all the time, about how if I had been home that night with Meredith or alone, I could be dead,” she said.

“And, if our positions were switched, Meredith would be sitting here talking to you today about her dead friend Amanda Knox, it is that easy. And that is the real tragic crux to this story and it's one that has left me, you know…I have a lot of feelings of not having closure, because just like Meredith's family doesn't have closure, I don't have closure.”

She added: “There's really no reason but luck that I'm sitting here talking to you today. I am daily reminded that my name and my face are associated with this tragedy.”

After Kercher was murdered in 2007 in Italy, where the pair were roommates, Knox spent almost four years in an Italian prison as the prime suspect for the case before being acquitted.

Knox, host of the new podcast The Truth About Crime, was exonerated for the murder of Kercher in 2015, alongside her boyfriend at the time, Raffaele Sollecito.

This morning the 33-year-old described how she got caught up in what she described as a “sad and tragic case”.


 Meredith Kercher

Meredith Kercher

Meredith Kercher

“I mean, it's a very sad and tragic case,” she said, “not unlike things that happen to young women when they're vulnerable and abroad. Meredith and I were living in an apartment with two other girls, two Italian girls and one night, while Meredith was home alone, a local burglar who had been on a burglary spree for several weeks broke into our house and raped and murdered her.

“That's the story. I mean that's what happened. This man was named Rudy Guede and he was convicted of this crime.

“The only reason that it became complicated is because the investigators didn't immediately pick up on the fact that Rudy Guede had committed this crime and instead decided to arrest me and my boyfriend of five days and my boss before they had any evidence.

“They then pursued a case against us even when and the evidence unanimously and unequivocally showed that it was Rudy Guede had committed this crime.”

She told also she had turned 20 over the summer, and was “young, sheltered, immature in some ways” and “grew up on trial and in prison under very extreme circumstances”.

“I was thrust very suddenly into a very ugly, brutal reality starting with the horrific murder of my friend and roommate. It was a lot to process and I still feel like I'm processing it to this day.”

She also described being flabbergasted by her portrayal as ‘Foxy Knoxy’ and the salacious suggestions made about her, that she was a man-eating femme fatal who bought lingerie in the aftermath of the death of her roommate.

“I was flabbergasted by it, I didn't understand why it was happening or where this narrative was coming from. I felt helpless to defend myself against it because if you want to see me through a certain lens, how can I prove you otherwise?

“And that has very much informed my work today, where I see narratives being written around people so that they become characters and morality plays that satisfy our fantasies and our fears.

“I'm trying to deconstruct that in my own work, in my own podcasting. This is something I'm very, very sensitive to,” she added, “in witnessing other people going through it because at the time I was powerless.

“I was locked in a jail cell..but there was never at any point that I was worried that my mom was going to see a news report and think, ‘Oh my goodness, my daughter’. Like, my family knows me and if anything when they watched these news reports they would be going, ‘that is not my daughter’.

She also pointed out how to this day she is still associated with the murder which has been highlighted in recent media coverage of the release of Rudy Guede .

“There was a headline recently that really, really highlighted this issue where Rudy Guede was recently released and the headline was, ‘The man who killed Amanda Knox’s roommate is released from prison’, and of all the people’s names that should have been remembered in that headline mine should not have been there. Meredith should have been remembered, Rudy should have been named.

“Once again, here is this issue of people pitching characters out into the world. And here I am being made the centre of a true crime story that I am not the centre of.”

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