Danniella Westbrook 'wanted to die'
Danniella Westbrook tried to overdose on drugs because she "wanted to die".
The former 'EastEnders' actress has struggled with an addiction to cocaine for years and admits her turbulent relationship with ex-fiance Tom Richards - who she accused of hitting her - caused her to relapse and attempt suicide.
She explained: "I wasn't strong enough to hang myself or cut myself, but I just wanted to kill myself.
"I couldn't get Tom out of my life and thought the easiest way out was killing myself.
"That's why I used cocaine.
"I was medicating myself. It has always been my drug of choice. I was using two to three grams a day, which was too much.
"It wasn't as much as I was using when I was younger. But it was enough to make my body shut down.
"That's what I wanted to happen. It nearly worked. I wanted to die."
The 41-year-old star - who is set to reprise her role as Trudy Ryan in 'Hollyoaks' - claims the cage fighter was simply using her in a bid to find fame.
Danniella told the Sunday People newspaper: "He's obsessed with being famous and has told people he was using me to get there, to get on a reality TV show or something like that.
"It's something I can't understand about people nowadays.
The blonde beauty - who is now dating model Jude Moore - is devastated police have dropped their charges against Tom but is determined to see him punished for his alleged assaults against her.
She added: "I have made some bad decisions in my life, but he's the worst decision I have ever made.
"I cannot believe the police have let him off without taking any action. But I won't stop until something is done and he's locked up, even if it's for the sake of other women."