Daniella Westbrook's relapse was a cry for help
Daniella Westbrook says her drug relapse was a cry for help.
The former 'EastEnders' actress has been open about her struggle with addiction in the past but insists her recent cocaine relapse - which she blames on her turbulent relationship with ex-fiancé Tom Richards - wasn't an attempt to end her life and was simply to get people to listen to her.
In an emotional interview on 'This Morning', the 41-year-old star - who has two children Jodie, 14, and Kai, 18, with her ex-husband Kevin Jenkins - admitted: "I wasn't killing myself, no one was listening to me anymore.
"I didn't try and kill myself with the drugs. Myself and my kids have gone through a tough time with my ex partner and what it seems to be that everyone gets their say, earns their money and gets what they want with me, and then me and my kids suffer because I made a bad choice".
However, Daniella - who was recently axed from 'Hollyoaks' before filming a single scene over a "breach of agreement" - admits returning to drugs was her decision.
She said: "For me personally I put my hands up and said I relapsed because I wanted to, not because anybody made me, I was clean for 13 years. People are quick to think that and we all battle with our demons in life and because I'm in the public eye, I'm not going to lie and sit back and say that never happened.
"Ive taken drugs before, I have relapsed and taken drugs on a daily basis but I'm not given a second chance of things, I'm just me."
The star previously expressed her desire to end her life and confessed she was taking the drug daily in a bid to escape her troubled relationship with martial arts teacher Tom.
She said: "I couldn't get Tom out of my life and thought the easiest way out was killing myself. That's why I used cocaine.
"I was medicating myself. It has always been my drug of choice. I was using two to three grams a day, which was too much. That's what I wanted to happen. It nearly worked. I wanted to die."