VIDEO: 21-year-old woman living as adult baby
LOOKING at Jess’s collection of dummies and sippy cups, you’d be forgiven for thinking the pretty 21-year-old from Florida had a baby of her own to care for.
But Jess’s collection of babygrows aren’t sized for a newborn - they are designed with her 5ft 5in frame in mind.
As an ‘adult baby’, Jess likes to wear nappies, drink from bottles and ‘regress’ back to her infancy.
A sexual abuse survivor, Jess, who lives in Lakeland, Florida with her 24-year-old boyfriend, David, says that regressing has helped her make peace with her troubled childhood.
Jess was sexually abused when she was just two years old and the trauma of her early years lead to depression and anxiety.
Now a confident and happy young woman, Jess says wearing diapers, babygrows and drinking from bottles has done more for her self-esteem than years of traditional therapy and medication.
Jess, who works as a nanny, said: “Age play is really my best escape and it allows me to reclaim the innocence of my childhood and have it play out the way I always wanted.
“Aside from that though, regressing and being a ‘little' just fits with my personality.
“It allows me to be playful and cute, which is what I’m like naturally anyway and so I think that I would definitely still be living this lifestyle if I’d had a more ‘normal’ childhood.”
Jess and David engage in practices called Daddy Dominant/Little Girl (DDLG), Adult Baby Diaper Lover (ABDL) and Age Play (AP) – all sub-sects of BDSM.
But the couple, who have been together for four years, say for them age play is not sexual and is more of a lifestyle choice.
“We never have sex while I’m age playing but for a lot of people it is a sexual kink.” Jess explained.
“For us, it is more about enjoying the dominant/submissive dynamic in our everyday lives.
“I was always very childlike in my mannerisms anyway so this has been a sort of natural progression for us both.
“I enjoy the feeling of David being a protector and a person that I can depend on to look after me and he likes feeling needed.
“It has definitely brought us closer as a couple."
In David’s role as ‘Daddy’, he sets rules for Jess when she is age playing, offering rewards when she sticks to them and doling out punishments when she doesn’t.
Jess might be put into 'time out’ or spanked for misbehaving and she is rewarded with a shopping trip or sweet treats for being good.
David said: “My favourite thing about being Jess’s Daddy is caring for her. Age play is not sexually stimulating for me in any way shape or form.
"I know it is for a lot of people but it just isn’t for me.
“But it makes me happy to keep her happy and it brings us closer in our relationship.”
Jess says that wearing a diaper feels like an ‘instant comfort’ but admits only to urinating in them, saying anything more would be ‘too far’ for her.
Pretty and quirky, it’s no surprise that Jess’s videos have found a dedicated audience on Youtube.
Jess uploads videos in which she talks openly about her age play lifestyle and her relationship with David to her 25,000 subscribers on YouTube.
“I aim to reach any audience that will receive me. Both vanillas and kinksters alike,” Jess said.
“I’m always happy to educate those who don't understand and give a voice to those who are afraid to come out.
“My main goal with everything online is to be myself and show others they can too - whatever they’re into.
“I don't do anything with the intention of sexually arousing anyone, all my social media is safe for work, but I can't control what they do from behind a screen and I don't really mind it much.”
Jess receives lots of positive comments from other adult babies and littles and one of her followers even build a five-foot tall crib for her to pay and sleep in.
But reaction to her videos hasn’t been wholly positive.
David said: “Some people have called me a pedophile and have made fun of Jess. But really, I just try to ignore it.
“We know we’re okay and aren’t doing anything wrong.”
Jess is now looking for a real life babysitter who will carry out a bedtime routine for her and look after her while David is away at work.
“For me it’s something innocent and pure. It’s helped me find myself and find my inner self confidence and I’ve never been happier,” she said.